Right when we are in the middle of a mistake it would be so nice to have your forehead turn red hot to alert you.
I’m already past thinking God would allow nothing to happen until His time disregarded that TOTALLY and I was going to dominate and destroy any and all competition in my way, either you were with me or against me. That’s street mentally and may of worked in the 70′s but the way people are today I’m left constantly baffled. Maybe I cherished my old friends to much and try to apply that level of friendship to people struggling to exist. Things are way rougher on everyone now it’s scary sometimes to watch America struggling to find her new identity.
So what are you going to do PAL ?
I really think I need to decide if it’s worth returning to Key West which it most definitely is and I do very well there. But the problem is when I chased this red head to Philly I disregarded the conditions of my probation. I did over the last 2-3 years since think of just going back and doing my little county jail bid and get back to LIFE.
I don’t want or need to rant about San Antonio and what I have to presently deal with especially when I’ve come to the conclusion that I am a product of my environment. I need to be around happy people that have things going on in their life.
I have to escape and was thinking about Nebraska Hey maybe I can work for Shomoney 
Anyway I’d like to be honest about a whole lot of shit right now such as I know I only have a few real friends and stuff like that but I don’t need to stew in facts that aren’t positive and not going to bring about change.
Excuses are for losers and I have been a loser many times in my life. To stay where you know your not going to get anywhere and the people are not on your level means your a loser. Being a loser sucks. I’m going to do something about it and don’t need to spread my situation out there any more especially stuff that gets indexed
I come from the place where we don’t get caught because we leave no evidence.
How as your day ?
Mine actually showed mad progress see before I would of went and got drunk get arrested you know the routine.
Any related experience or advice I’m all ears Thanks
I lived in Nebraska for 2 years when I was 4. I remember hearing the sirens to go down to the basement because a tornado was on the way. I also remember walking to school in blizzards. No fun lol. And I agree that you are a product of your environment, who you hang around matters. If your friends are doing big things and moving up, that’s a good place to be. But if you hang out with losers, and bad stuff happens to them, chances are eventually it will happen to you if you stick around long enough. I would just go wherever you feel the most comfortable, it’s important to like where you live.
Sounds like you are doing some serious soul searching here mate, finding your feet so to speak.
I say, do what you think will make you happiest, rather than anything else.
I think we are a product of our environment, but I also think our environment is a product of us. Gotta improve both I say.
JOHN!!! Whats up man, long time no hear. I took the lead at the Masters and while reading your blog, I realized YES YES YES I was a product of my environment. All that money to have all these woman beg at my feet, what man on Earth would have said no?? I mean I couldn’t help it, flashy cars, money, anything I wanted everywhere, screwing all these women kept me off of meth, heroin, and cocaine right? I also love how you always find the best song to fit into your posts…
– PEACE OUT my brotha from anotha motha, I gotta get my head back into the game and out from all these hoes legs….
TALK TO YOU AGAIN SOON!!!
Keep on rockin’ the free world man…..
Are you a product of your environment? I say only if you want to be. If that were true I should be a dirt poor drunk beating my wife and kids. It is certainly a lot easier for some than others but I think we all have a chance if we have heart.
John Sullivan living in Nebraska – that’s about as funny as it gets. I can see those farmers now, scared to death and grabbing those pitch forks lol
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